predencia

‘My mind holds only what I think with God.’

(139) I will accept Atonement for myself.
(140) Only salvation can be said to cure.

I didn’t think once of the lesson today, beyond the initial reading that is, but the issue of love and the selfless expression of it permeated the day. I spent most of it with my son’s girlfriend who was helping me with setting up my Penny Dixon Facebook pages, and Twitter accounts for both this site and the Penny Dixon one. Please check out my new pages and my tweets.

She expresses her love for my son in so many overt and subtle ways that I was almost moved to tears. When we went for a drink at the end of the evening she was still working on his behalf and announced that she’d just managed to secure him work experience at the BBC. Even though I know there is some element of ‘specialness’ going on between them it’s beautiful to watch two people so very much in love.

On another note, I have a plea to anyone who’s read Dare to Love and not yet written a review of it on Amazon…can you please, please, spare a few minutes to write just a couple of sentences about what you thought of the book? My publisher said it will make a big difference not just to the sales of Dare to Love but also to the new novel Betrayed, due out in July.

The drive back this week was a little later (helping my son with a presentation for his university course) and a little quicker (no accident on the motorway. Sadly I didn’t make it back in time for Ceroc.

‘My mind holds only what I think with God.’

(137) When I am healed I am not healed alone.
(138) Heaven is the decision I must make.

Back in Manchester attempting to grapple with UCAS forms (hopefully sorted it now). Questions of spirituality crop up everywhere, and tonight it was in Jam Street Café with a group of writers, performers, film makers, and artists. I think creative people by and large understand that they are channels for their art, that their most exciting work comes from a time when they are ‘in the zone’, in a place of allowing things to flow.  Tonight’s discussion with members of Speakeasy was a real joy, thanks guys, it’s good to connect in that way and Chris, I totally agree that we create our own heaven or hell right here. I didn’t even remember that my lesson today was ‘heaven is a decision I must make’ and I made a little bit of heaven tonight.

Pic is of a view from my friend’s balcony in Barzey’s, Montserrat. A little bit of heaven.

‘My mind holds only what I think with God.’

(135) If I defend myself I am attacked.
(136) Sickness is a defence against the truth.

Lesson 135 was the one on planning that I found so challenging. I’ve spent many hours talking about it and meditating on it to be able to face it again today. I’ve been going a lot more with the ‘flow’ and writing virtually nothing on my new novel, which I had planned to finish by the end of July. I’ve booked a weekend away in August to celebrate the completed first draft – so confident was I that it would happen. I keep getting the angel card that says ‘visualise what you want and focus on it’. So, I’m going to do a lot of visualisation, and hope the flow takes me back to many hours in front of my laptop. Maybe I’ll try Dragon Speaking to speed up the process.

As sickness is a defence against the truth I do everything I know to keep healthy, including regular massages. I had a deep tissue massage at Vibro Suite courtesy of Groupon. It’s a beautiful spa overlooking the canal on which narrow boats lazed in the afternoon sunshine, like multi-coloured lizards basking on warm rocks.

The young woman had amazing fingers, unravelling the stubborn knots in my calves, my back and my shoulders. I almost floated out of there.

‘My mind holds only what I think with God.’

(133) I will not value what is valueless.
(134) Let me perceive forgiveness as it is.

Today I was told that I’m valued (more than it appears). Thank you, if you are reading this, it means a lot to me, especially as the lesson today is about value. After a turbulent week I really needed to get back to a place of peace, and realised it was my lack of forgiveness (particularly of two people in my life) that was keeping peace at bay. I’ve been too busy nursing an illusionary hurt which had me descending into lower and lower self esteem, too busy valuing what is valueless to notice that it was my ego’s attachment to my perceived slights that was keeping me in turmoil.

As soon as I made the choice to forgive, i.e. when I remembered that what I give to others I give to myself, when I wished my brother peace, I also found mine. Always when this happens I wonder why it was I forgot, why do I put myself through all that pain to return to this point? My one consolation is that the circles from pain to forgiveness are getting smaller.

Once I’d released my brothers with a text and an email, I felt liberated to join with the sunshine and the vibrant energy of the day. First stop was a trip to collect a couple of small orgonites from a friend, only to find he’d made the most enormous one which stood nearly three feet off the floor (see pic). It was great to watch an artist at work, secure in his creativity.

Then I picked up another friend and went to join the other thousands of people inCannonHillPark, before returning home to join in the BBQ. It was one of those perfect days that came from an open heart and a forgiving and forgiven mind. I am soooooo blessed.

‘My mind holds only what I think with God.’

 (131) No one can fail who seeks to reach the truth.
(132) I loose the world from all I thought it was.

I spent today seeking to reach the truth through long meditations, ACIM tele-classes and being in nature. More and more I’m appreciating the simple things in life, like sunshine and oxygen. It was the perfect antidote to the hectic week I had. I didn’t even make it into the City Centre for theCaribbeanmusic and food event inVictoria Square. My body said ‘rest’ and I listened.

Did some research on Orgonite and am amazed by the claims made for it. Different to the Argonite I bought yesterday which I used today to increase my vibration during meditation.

‘My mind holds only what I think with God.’

 (129) Beyond this world there is a world that I want.
(130) It is impossible to see two worlds.

Someone told me that there was a planetary reason for the general lethargy and fatigue that I’ve been feeling – apparently there are others feeling it too. Could it be that they’ve had a hectic week as well?

I went to meet a friend from Londonwho’s helping to prepare children in one of Birmingham’s large comprehensive schools for a national poetry slam being organised by Apples and Snakes. We visited a mind body spirit shop to buy crystals and I got to looking at David Icke’s new book Remember who you are: Remember where you are and where you come from. Interestingly, there appears to be a lot in there that’s consistent with ACIM.

In Remember Who You Are David goes far deeper down the rabbit hole than merely our daily experience of the ‘five senses’. He reveals the true nature of our reality where there is no ‘solidity’ or ‘physical’ – only vibrational, electrical, digital and holographic information fields that we decode into what appears to be a ‘physical world’. David calls this the ‘Cosmic Internet’.

ACIM teaches that the world we see is the world we project from out thoughts. Maybe I’m not fatigued after all; maybe it is just a projection. Today I projected a hot, sunny and gloriously balmy day. Why can’t I, or we, collectively project more of these days?

‘My mind holds only what I think with God.’

(127) There is no love but God’s.
(128) The world I see holds nothing that I want

I found little space to be still today for any length of time other than first thing in the morning. The rest of the day was taken up with seeing clients, dealing with tenant issues, seeing friends and finally going to the support group for ACIM. I fell into bed exhausted from physical and mental fatigue.

It was only in the support group that I realised that I was supposed to be reflecting on the lessons every hour during this review period, as well as focusing five minutes either ends of the day. Although I’ve not done that consciously, I’ve been reminding myself constantly that I am as God created me, whole and perfect. I think that’s close enough.

We discussed the need to be open channels through which God creates miracles, rather than focusing on what miracles we are going to create. When we begin to think about what needs a miracle we’re already seeing ourselves as special, when in truth no one is more special than the other, and there are no degrees of miracles, or any hierarchy of miracles. Often, what we would consider a big miracle could not have been possible without several seemingly smaller ones. Several times I had to remind myself that I was there go give as well as to receive.

My mind holds only what I think with God.’

(125) In quiet I receive God’s Word today.
(126) All that I give is given to myself.

A crazy kind of day. Woke up inManchesterand had my quiet contemplation before7.30 a.m.It was the only quiet time. The day ran something like this.

Six hours learning about Facebook, creating a Penny Dixon Page and updating my personal Predencia one. My laptop kept freezing (despite the 25 degrees Celsius outside) which is why it took so long. I have another lesson on internet marketing next week.

Two hours driving back fromManchester. Due to an accident between junctions 15 and 16 it took half an hour to do three miles (reminded me of the days when I travelled regularly for work) Lionel Ritchie’s dulcet tones kept me calm.

Was ten minutes late to check out a tenant who was leaving today, and then had to check out a faulty fridge – today of all days. How often do we get 25 degrees?

I needed a half hour power nap before going to Ceroc – but it was worth it. I’m feeling much more confident, and partners were saying they enjoyed (rather than endured) my dancing. I even sold a copy of Dare to Love.

Absolutely knackered now, but will find a few quiet moment before I fall asleep to receive some more of God’s words.

‘My mind holds only what I think with God.’

(123) I thank my father for His gifts to me.
(124) Let me remember I am one with God.

Today was one of those where I was constantly pinching myself and reminding myself how very lucky I am.

First of all I woke up to sunlight streaking through the leaves of the magnificent copper beach tree outside my bedroom. In my daily meditation I made real connection with my source energy, and in that space I was, indeed, one with God. Hardly surprising that the rest of the day should be so simple and so amazing.

As my angel cards have been telling me to spend more time in nature I decided to do some weeding, and make some more vitamin D. Even the busy M6 on the way to Manchesterwas made pleasurable with Fleetwood Mac (been listening to them a lot lately). Who can fail to be soothed by ‘Albatross’?

The time spent with my very appreciative son sorting out study and finance issues was a sheer joy, despite the complexities of UCAS and Student Finance. We got to good point without too much stress.

Then I arrived at my brother’s house just in time for dinner. Now I’m listening to Otis Redding ‘It’s been a long time coming.’ Yes siree, it’s been a long time coming but today I am very grateful and very happy.