‘My mind holds only what I think with God.’

(135) If I defend myself I am attacked.
(136) Sickness is a defence against the truth.

Lesson 135 was the one on planning that I found so challenging. I’ve spent many hours talking about it and meditating on it to be able to face it again today. I’ve been going a lot more with the ‘flow’ and writing virtually nothing on my new novel, which I had planned to finish by the end of July. I’ve booked a weekend away in August to celebrate the completed first draft – so confident was I that it would happen. I keep getting the angel card that says ‘visualise what you want and focus on it’. So, I’m going to do a lot of visualisation, and hope the flow takes me back to many hours in front of my laptop. Maybe I’ll try Dragon Speaking to speed up the process.

As sickness is a defence against the truth I do everything I know to keep healthy, including regular massages. I had a deep tissue massage at Vibro Suite courtesy of Groupon. It’s a beautiful spa overlooking the canal on which narrow boats lazed in the afternoon sunshine, like multi-coloured lizards basking on warm rocks.

The young woman had amazing fingers, unravelling the stubborn knots in my calves, my back and my shoulders. I almost floated out of there.