predencia

‘Only God’s plan for salvation will work.’

 It is senseless for me to search wildly about for salvation. I have seen it in many people and in many things, but when I reached for it, it was not there. I was mistaken about where it is. I was mistaken about what it is. I will undertake no more idle seeking. Only God’s plan for salvation will work. And I will rejoice because His plan can never fail.

Forms for specific application are: God’s plan for salvation will save me from my perception of this. This is not exception in God’s plan for my salvation. Let me perceive this only in the light of God’s plan for salvation.

 ‘Holding grievances is an attack on God’s plan for salvation.’

 Holding grievances is an attempt to prove that God’s plan for salvation will not work. Yet only His plan will work. By holding grievances, I am therefore excluding my only hope of salvation from my awareness. I would no longer defeat my own best interests in this insane way. I would accept God’s plan for salvation, and be happy.

Specific applications for today’s idea include:

I am choosing between misconception and salvation as I look on this. If I see grounds for grievances in this, I will not see the grounds for my salvation. This calls for salvation, not attack.

 Today’s lesson is one of those heavily marked from the first time round. It was at this point then that I realised that I’d been looking everywhere for enlightenment, for my salvation, except to myself. I’d done the Louise Hay course, read a lot of Deepak Chopra and attended his seminars, done the Academy of High Achievers (AHA) Ignite goals, and attended the Tony Quinn seminar in the Bahamas at the whopping great cost of £12,600 (back in February 2005), plus numerous other short courses and seminars.

 While I learned something from all of them, none of them individually had the answer to my enlightenment. It was at this point in the course in 2005 that I began to truly grasp that everything I needed to heal myself on all level was within me. But here’s a thing, knowing it is not enough. The external conditioning is so strong that it takes daily vigilance to maintain a belief in internal salvation.

I was working in my meditation room today and as a result of today’s lesson took close notice of the books on the shelf – each one reflecting a part of my journey to this point, the counselling books, the psychology ones, the angel and crystal bibles, ‘The Sacred YES’, ‘The Disappearance of the Universe’ ‘The Power of Now,’ all steps to this point.

And wouldn’t you know I had a chance to practice my lesson today. I bumped into a friend I’ve not seen for a long time and ended up going for a drink to catch up on our lives. I found myself becoming very irritated by the fact he was still in the same situation he was moaning about nearly four years ago, and still moaning about it now. I was about to let him have it, to tell him to put up or shut up when I remembered that this was just another form of attack. I couldn’t remember the short forms of the lesson exactly, so I sent him love instead, wished him peace and reminded myself that from this situation I could find salvation.

One day I will be able to do this instantly, not get into the time lag between thoughts of attack and thoughts of love. I love my friend. He is operating from his point of consciousness, what he needed was my love not my frustration. I’m glad I caught myself in time.

‘My grievances hide the light of the world in me.’

 My grievances show me what is not there, and hide from me what I would see. Recognising this, what do I want my grievances for? They keep me in darkness and hide the light. Grievances and light cannot go together, but light and vision must be joined for me to see. I want to see and this will be the means by which I succeed.  Specific applications for today’s idea are:

 Let me not use this as a block to the light.  The light of the world will shine all this away.  I have no need for this. I want to see.

 ‘My salvation comes from me.’

Today I will recognise where my salvation is. It is in me because its Source is there. It has not left its Source, and so it cannot have left my mind. I will not look for it outside myself. It is not found outside and then brought in. But from within me it will reach beyond, and everything I see but will reflect the light that shines in me and in itself.

Specific applications include:

Let this not tempt me to look away from me for my salvation. I will not let this interfere with my awareness of the Source of my salvation. This has no power to remove salvation from me.

 The weekend was still swimming around in my head on the drive back toBirmingham. I was still on a high, still very happy from meeting up with my son and the recording we did. Still happy with my book and CD sales and my contacts, and happy with the fact that I danced, and danced, and danced on Saturday night. Happy to sit in the sun and read my friend’s book and give him feedback in the same day. (One day I will write small books again that can be read in an afternoon) Nothing could bring me down off my cloud nine!! Happily I went to bed.

Pic is of two great guys I met at the Black Writer’s Conference

‘Love created me like itself.’

 I am in the likeness of  my Creator. I cannot suffer, I cannot experience loss and I cannot die. I am not a body. I would recognise my reality today. I will worship no idols, nor raise my own self-concept to replace my Self. I am in the likeness of my creator. Love created me like itself. You might find these specific forms helpful in applying the idea.

 Let me not see an illusion of myself in this. As I look on this, let me remember my Creator. My Creator did not create this as I see it.

 ‘Love holds no grievances.’

 Grievances are completely alien to love. Grievances attack love and keep its light obscure. If I hold grievances I am attacking love, and therefore attacking my Self. My Self thus becomes alien to me. I am determined not to attack my Self today, so that I can remember Who I am.

Specific forms for applying today’s idea include:

 This is no justification for denying my Self.

I will not use this to attack love.

Let this not tempt me to attack myself.

 Four and a half hours sleep isn’t enough after a 19 hour day, certainly not enough to record 30 pages of a book. The partying and the lack of sleep took its toll on my voice. Just as well I’m still on the wagon, imagine if alcohol had been poured into the mix! We managed two and half pages – but it was quality – better quality than quantity.

 It was great fun doing the voice over for a cartoon my son is working on. He’s a really good director, even gave me the a microphone box to use as a makeshift gun when I had to shout ‘get back, get back or I’ll shoot,’ because, apparently it would affect the way I held my diaphragm and the quality and believability of the sound.

 Dinner was lovely, and would have been even more scrumptious if my brother hadn’t forgotten I don’t eat pork. No hard feeling bro.

 Pic is from evening performance at the Black Writer’s Conference.

‘My only function is the one God gave me.’

I have no function but the one God gave me. The recognition releases me from all conflict, because it means I cannot have conflicting goals. With one purpose only, I am always certain what to do, what to say and what to think. All doubts must disappear as I acknowledge that my only function is the one God gave me.
More specific applications of this idea might take these forms:

 My perception of this does not change my function.
This does not give me a function other than the one God gave me.
Let me not use this to justify a function God did not give me.

 ‘My happiness and my function are one.’

All things that come from God are one. They come from Oneness, and must receive as one. Fulfilling my function is my happiness because both come from the same Source. And I must learn to recognise what makes me happy, if I would find happiness.
Some useful forms for specific applications of this idea are:

This cannot separate my happiness from my function.
Nothing, including this, can justify the illusion of happiness apart from my function.

 This was the lesson I have to work with all day at the Black Writers Conference in Manchester. I’m going to write another blog specifically about the conference but as regards this lesson, I was ecstatic to be in the presence of other writers all day.

 I (unintentionally) sold three books and a CD. One of the first women I met told me she’d seen my book on facebook and that whoever had posted it said it was a ‘must read’. I had to go out to the car to get her a copy. I brought two in case anyone else asked, and the gentleman who was sitting at the table by then took that one. Later, a friend bought a copy and a gentleman, who said he’d got too many unread books bought a copy of RAW Vols 1 and 2.

 If my only function is to write, I’d be happy, but my aim is to be happy with whatever I’m required to do each day.

‘The light of world brings peace to every mind through my forgiveness.’

My forgiveness is the means by which the light of the world finds expression through me. My forgiveness is the means by which I become aware of the light of the world in me. My forgiveness is the means by which the world is healed, together with myself. Let me, then, forgive the world, that it may be healed along with me.
Suggestions for specific formes for applying this idea are:

Let peace extend from my mind to yours, (name)
I share the light of the world with you, (name)

‘Let me not forget my function.’

I would not forget my function, because I would remember my Self. I cannot fulfill my function if I forget it. And unless I fulfill my function, I will not experience the joy that God intends for me.
Suitable specific forms of this idea include:

I would use this as an opportunity to fulfill my function.
This may threaten my ego, but cannot change my function in any way.

I think its great that there are only two lessons to be reviewed each day. I’m finding it much easier that the five per day at the first review section. No surprises to find the ‘F’ word still prominent, but having had such a relaxing couple of days I had no major forgiveness challenges today. I did, however, have plenty of opportunities to be of service. One was helping a friend, through reading Dan Millman’s book ‘The Life You Were Born to Live’ to understand herself much better, and to gain some insight into those closest to her.

There really is nothing more rewarding that to serve another soul. YES! I’ve said it. SERVICE IS THE MOST REWARDING THING THERE IS!! Even more rewarding than writing, unless the writing is a form of service.

On the way back from my spa break I dropped into Russels Supermarket on the Lozells Road in Birmingham, and was struck by its truly authentic Jamaican feel. I wasn’t the only one that felt it. My friend and I both stopped at the door with the same thought. Even the air smelt of Jamaica – I wonder if they have some special Jamaican air spray that creates the smell. A much nicer one than the cigarette smelling one they used at the Hilton. Lovely hotel, but they could do with using a different air freshener.

The drive to Manchester for the writers conference tomorrow was a long and often stop-start one. Even though we left Birmingham at 2.45 p.m. the motorway (M6) was already rammed. It took two and three-quarter hours for a journey that would usually be about 90 minutes.

I wish I could have taken a picture of the masses of daffodils in the central reservations along Princess Road as we drove. Spring is truly here. I saw my first flowering magnolia tree today. Alas I was driving and couldn’t take a picture to share with you.

The picture is of the front of the hotel as we left.

‘I am the light of the world.’

How holy am I who have been given the function of lighting up the world. Let me be still before my holiness. In its calm light let all my conflicts disappear. In its peace let me remember Who I am.

Some specific forms for applying this idea when special difficulties seem to arise might be;

Let me not obscure the light of the world in me.
This shadow will vanish before the light.

‘Forgiveness is my function as the light of the world.’

It is through accepting my function that I will see the light in me. And in this light will my function stand clear and perfectly unambiguous before my sight. My acceptance does not depend on my recognising what my function is, for I do not yet understand forgiveness. Yet I will trust that, in the light, I will see it as it is. Specific forms for using this idea might include:

Let this help me learn what forgiveness means.
Let me not separate my function from my will.

Some days are just perfect, and this was one of them. It’s great to be in a space of review and assimilation again, and to be doing it in this lovely hotel. We went to the gym, swam, spent time in the sauna and spa and finished up with a massage. Then we got dressed and went to find the Nailer’s Arms in Bournheath, recommended to us for its carvery, but alas they were in between servings. After a brief chat and laugh with a few guys at the bar one of them offered to show us where The Swan in Fairfield was. He got into his car and drove there so we could follow him. Such generosity! Thanks Pete!The swan was welcoming, served great food and had a fantastic atmosphere.

It was great to have a companion with which to discuss today’s lessons, particularly the one on forgiveness. We both agreed that although it’s very difficult to forgive when you are in the midst of feeling hurt and pain, it is absolutely necessary as the thing that will release us from said hurt and pain. It was amazing how many conversations came back to that, and the groan of realisation that there was no other answer. That and letting go and letting God.

The pic is of the hotel lobby where we spent a great many hours yesterday chewing the fat.