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I am not a body. I am free. For I am still as God created me.

(190) I choose the joy of God instead of pain.

Pain is my own idea. It is not a Thought of God, but one I thought apart from His Will. His Will is joy, and only joy for His beloved Son. And that I choose, instead of what I made.

I am not a body. I am free. For I am still as God created me.

The cyst on my back is virtually pain free, which means that although I’ve been thinking more of God’s will, I’m still holding on to a little of my own idea, and finding a little pocket where love does not reside. My will for today is to choose the will of God and not my own.

I’m still very tired from the intensity of yesterday, but felt compelled to go for a jog, to pump oxygen around my body and infuse it with a little more energy. Alas, it couldn’t take the place of sleep, and by late afternoon I turned on the radiators again (hailstones in July!!) and went for a snooze.

Hardly seems like a week since I did the filming. I bought Passing Go by Libby Purves in a second hand bookstore in Hereford. I’m hoping it will inspire me to continue writing the third novel, as there’s been no activity there for some time.

I am not a body. I am free. For I am still as God created me.

(189) I feel the Love of God within me now.

The Love of God is what created me. The Love of God is everything I am. The Love of God proclaimed me as His Son. The Love of God within me sets me free.

I am not a body. I am free. For I am still as God created me.

Morning – meditation and drive to Hereford

Afternoon – sound and lighting check at the theatre. Leisurely wander around Hereford in the sunshine with four wonderful and very funny people. Loads of love between us.

Evening – perform Don Giovanni to great audience and receive fantastic feedback

Night – drive back from Hereford on top of the world as the theatre has asked us to submit the full piece from which our 15 minute piece was taken for consideration for next year schedule.

Enjoy some of the great pics.

I am not a body, I am free. For I am as God created me.

(188) The peace of God is shining in me now.

I will be still, and let the world be still along with me. And in that stillness we will find the peace of God. It is within my heart, which witnesses to God himself.

I am not a body, I am free. For I am as God created me.

I took the lesson literally today, and spent it in meditation and contemplation, which, because of the beautiful sunshine, also included a spot of gardening. I think when you are still, the world cannot but be still, because we project our stillness out into the world.

What did you think of the Olympic opening ceremony?

I am not a body. I am free. For I am still as God created me.

(187) I bless the world because I bless myself.

God’s blessing shines upon me from within my heart, where He abides. I need but turn to Him, and every sorrow melts away, as I accept His boundless love for me.

 I am not a body. I am free. For I am still as God created me.

 The fatigue from yesterday spilled over into today as I had to be up and out early. I had to take a power nap before heading off to the ACIM study group. It’s always good to be with others who speak the same language, even if we don’t always agree on the interpretation of the lessons.

I am not a body. I am free. For I am still as God created me.

(186) Salvation of the world depends on me.

I am entrusted with the gifts of God, because I am His Son. And I would give His gifts where He intended them to be.

I am not a body. I am free. For I am still as God created me.

I spent the day clearing my loft of thing I no longer want to take into my future. I thought it would take about half-an-hour, but it actually took three and a half hours. Why is it we can’t just throw things out without recalling everything it ever meant to us?

I would have been in there longer if I hadn’t got to rush to an emergency Writers Without Borders meeting, and on my return was too tired to go to Ceroc. The first time I’ve missed a class as a result of sheer fatigue.

And the salvation of the world? It was all I could do to save myself today.

I am not a body, I am free. For I am as God created me.

(185) I want the peace of God

The peace of God is everything I want. The peace of God is my one goal; the aim of all my living here, the end I seek, my purpose and my function and my life, while I abide where I am not at home.

I am not a body, I am free. For I am as God created me.

Two things could have ruffled my peace today. The first was that the amendments that I sent to the publishers last Monday could not be found, and there was the possibility they would have to be done again. Fortunately a solution was found that meant the process could be speeded up.

The second was the annual invasion of ants, regular and flying. After my initials leaping about (mainly because I was tired from our last rehearsal before our performance on Saturday) I managed to get things under control.

On a much brighter note, I’ve sorted my costume for the Don Giovanni performance. Red basque and silk veils. The other cast members love it.

I’ve realised that I’m much more peaceful when I’ve had enough sleep

I am not a body, I am free. For I am as God created me.

(185) I want the peace of God

The peace of God is everything I want. The peace of God is my one goal; the aim of all my living here, the end I seek, my purpose and my function and my life, while I abide where I am not at home.

I am not a body, I am free. For I am as God created me.

Two things could have ruffled my peace today. The first was that the amendments that I sent to the publishers last Monday could not be found, and there was the possibility they would have to be done again. Fortunately a solution was found that meant the process could be speeded up.

The second was the annual invasion of ants, regular and flying. After my initials leaping about (mainly because I was tired from our last rehearsal before our performance on Saturday) I managed to get things under control.

I’ve realised that I’m much more peaceful when I’ve had enough sleep

I am not a body, I am free. For I am as God created me.

(184) The name of God is my inheritance.

God’s Name reminds me that I am His Son, not slave to time, unbound by laws which rule the world of sick illusions, free in God, forever and forever one with Him.

I am not a body, I am free. For I am as God created me.

I accidentally left my laptop at home so I could do no work while in Manchester. I took it as a sign that it was a day to relax. After a lazy morning, and a very long lunch, I had a pleasant and easy drive home. I was certainly no slave to time today.

I am not a body, I am free. For I am as God created me.

(183) I call upon God’s name and on my own.

The name of God is my deliverance from every thought of evil and of sin, because it is my own as well as his.

I am not a body, I am free. For I am as God created me.

What an exciting day! Filming in the morning and early afternoon. Drive to Manchester late afternoon, and my brother’s birthday celebrations in the evening. So many people I haven’t seen in many, many years, some looked unchanged, and some were unrecognisable, ravaged by illness and worries.

It was a day spent in front of one camera or another, and I’m very pleased that one of the producers on the set was interested in doing further work with me. He said I was a natural. There’s something quite unnerving about close up shots, which at the same time is very good for building confidence in having one’s warts and all exposed.

I was happy to be behind the camera at my brother’s do, which took place at the Vermillion Cinnabar in the SportCity area of Manchester. Very OTT décor but fantastic food, and great atmosphere. Their house wine isn’t bad either – so much for my resolution to stay on the water – but at least it was only two glasses. Definitely on the water for the rest of the week now. Have a look at some of the pics.

I’m not a body. I’m free. For I am as God created me.

(182) I will be still an instant and go home.

Why would I choose to stay an instant more where I do not belong, when God himself has given me His Voice to call me home?

I’m not a body. I’m free. For I am as God created me.

I may not be just a body, but yesterday I undid all the good work of the gym by drinking nearly a whole bottle of wine last to help wash down a rather lovely Chinese take away. I was paying for it today.

Yes I found an instant to be still and go home, and then lost of other moments when I really needed to be still to just feel OK. I’ve had a reminder of why I don’t drink much anymore. Not a great day to be out of it either, not with rehearsal for Don Giovanni and learning lines for the film tomorrow. Going to bed early to find some more still time.