‘Let me perceive forgiveness as it is.’
Let us review the meaning of ‘forgive’ for it is apt to be distorted and to be perceived as something that entails an unfair sacrifice of righteous wrath, a gift unjustified and undeserved, and a complete denial of the truth.. In such a view forgiveness must be seen as mere eccentric folly, and this course appear to rest salvation on a whim.
This twisted view of what forgiveness really means is easily corrected, when you can accept the fact that pardon is not asked for what is true. It must be limited to what is false. It is irrelevant to everything except illusions. Truth is God’s creation and to pardon that is meaningless. All truth belongs to Him, reflects his laws and radiates His love. Does this need pardon? How can you forgive the sinless and eternally benign?
Forgiveness is the only thing that stands for truth in the illusions of the world. There is a simple way to find the door to true forgiveness, and perceive it open wide in welcome. When you feel that you are tempted to accuse someone of sin in any form, do not allow your mind to dwell on what you think he did, for that is self-deception. Ask instead, ‘Would I accuse myself of doing this?’
Today we practice true forgiveness, that the time of joining be no more delayed. Forgiveness should be practiced throughout the day, for there will still be many times when you forget its meaning and attack yourself. When this occurs, allow your mind to see through this illusion as you tell yourself:
Let me perceive forgiveness as it is. Would I accuse myself of doing this? I will not lay this claim upon myself.
In everything you do remember this:
No one is crucified alone, and yet no one can enter Heaven by himself.
I had to read the second paragraph of this lesson three times before I got it. It was the same with much of the rest of the lesson which is the longest so far, about 1700 words, and convoluted as hell.
The general gist as I gleaned is that forgiveness is for oneself. Because we are all one, you cannot forgive another without forgiving yourself. Whatever blame you put on someone, whatever misdemeanour ‘sins’ you accuse them of, you are accusing yourself of. Everything we see as a wilful or deliberate act of malice is simply a misunderstanding, something that requires correction, not punishment.
Despite my years of forgiving I can still find thing that I’m blaming people for. I find myself using words like callous, heartless, self-seeking. The painful thing is that I have to look at myself and ask ‘where in my life am I displaying these things?’ By forgiving them in others, I also forgive them in myself. It’s part of the healing for the whole. Its like one side of an orange accusing the other that its rotting on purpose and refusing to do anything to help, not realising that by healing that side it also heals the whole orange.
Forgiveness is about not holding any pockets of grudges or accusations that can fester and create disease in the whole body. My forgiveness heals my body.
On another note: I started writing the new novel properly yesterday. I did a lot of preliminary work, characters, plot, time line etc. and finally got down the first 300 words before going for a well earned Ceroc lesson. They didn’t kick out the Groupon customers at 9.30 as they did before, so I got a lot of freestyle dancing in. A few people said I was doing really well for my eighth lesson.