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My sinlessness protects me from all harm.

My sinlessness ensures me perfect peace, eternal safety, everlasting love, freedom forever from all thoughts of loss; complete deliverance from suffering. And only happiness can be my state, for only happiness is given me. What must I do to know all this is mine? I must accept Atonement for myself, and nothing more. God has already done all things that need be done. And I must learn I need do nothing of myself, for I need but accept my Self, my sinlessness, created for me, now already mine, to feel God’s love protecting me from harm, to understand my Father loves His Son; to know I am the Son my Father loves.

You who created me in sinlessness are not mistaken about what I am. I was mistaken when I thought I sinned, but I accept Atonement for myself. Father, my dream is ended now. Amen.

I decided to take some TOIL from the writing today, and my body and mind thanked me. It allowed me to do some much needed clutter clearing, cleaning and general sprucing of my environment – great for the soul. I also spent some time with a friend who needs to make a decision about her relationship, and read another friend’s screen play.

While on a long walk in the morning I spoke to a friend who suggested that the book could easily be adapted for stage or screen (or both). Oh! I am so excited by the possibilities!!

Forgiveness lets me know that minds are joined.

Forgiveness is the means appointed for perception’s endings. Knowledge is restored after perception first is changed, and then gives way entirely to what remains forever past its highest reach. For sights and sound, at best, can serve but to recall the memory that lies beyond them all. Forgiveness sweeps away distortions, and opens the hidden altars to the truth. Its lilies shine into the minds, and call it to return and look within, to find what it has vainly sought without. For here, and only here, is peace of mind restored, for this the dwelling place of God Himself.

I n quiet may forgiveness wipe away my dreams of separation and of sin. Then let me, Father, look within, and find Your promise of my sinlessness is kept; Your Word remains unchanged within my mind, Your Love is still abiding in my heart.

After last night’s experience of extreme cold, followed by extreme heat and nausea, I decided to cancel all my activities for the day and have a day of rest, and allow myself to celebrate completing the novel.

I watched two comedy films, Nativity and one whose title I’ve forgotten already, but which was very funny. It was great therapy.

I choose to see my brother’s sinlessness.

Forgiveness is a choice. I never see my brother as he is, for that is far beyond perception. What I see in him is merely what I wish to see, because it stands for what I want to be the truth. It is to this alone that I respond, however much I seem to be impelled by outside happenings. I choose to see what I would look upon, and this I see, and only this. My brother’s sinlessness shows me that I would look upon my own. And I will see it, having chosen that I would look upon my own. And I will see it, having chosen to behold my brother in its holy light.

What could restore Your memory to me, except to see my brother’s sinlessness? His holiness reminds me that he was created one with me, and like myself. In him I find myself, and in Your Son I find the memory of You as well.

Full on day. Began with rehearsal for Don Giovanni, followed by Writers Without Borders Christmas do, and finally on to my friend’s ordination where I performed a poem for him.

I’m ready

I’m ready to soar
To fly high in the sky
To unclip you wings
And spread them wide
I’m ready to glide on the currents of love
To swirl and twirl
To feel the air in my feathers
I’m ready to sing
To twerp and tweet
To feel the highest branches beneath my feet
I’m ready to hover
By the beating of my own wings
I’m ready to stretch life
Until it pings

It was very well received, and one of the other ministers asked if she could have permission to use it in her prayer group. I said yes of course, and wondered what it is with me and churches at the moment.

I had a strange night feeling nauseous and very cold. Louise Hay says its nursing old hurts. Seems I have more forgiveness to do.

Today I claim the gifts forgiveness gives.

I will not wait another day to find the treasures that my Father offers me. Illusions are in vain, and dreams are gone even while they are woven out of thoughts that rest on false perceptions. Let me not accept such meagre gifts again today. God’s Voice is offering the peace of God to all who hear and choose to follow Him. This is my choice today. And so I go to find the treasures God has given me.

I seek but the eternal. For Your Son can be content with nothing less than this. What, then, can be his solace but what You are offering to his bewildered mind and frightened heart, to give him certainty and bring him peace? Today I would behold my brother sinless. This Your Will for me, for so will I behold my sinlessness.

The big news today is that I finished the first draft of the book at 20.50. Turned out to be 48,000 words. Feel elated, but can’t afford a drink as I’ve got such a busy day tomorrow.

Forgiveness ends the dream of conflict here.

Conflict must be resolved. It cannot be evaded, set aside, denied, disguised, seen somewhere else, called by another name, or hidden by deceit of any kind, if it would be escaped. It must be seen exactly as it is, where it is thought to be, in the reality which has been given it, and with the purpose that the mind accorded it. For only then are its defences lifted, and the truth can shine upon it as it disappears.

Father, forgiveness is the light You choose to shine away all conflict and all doubt, and light the way for our return to You. No light but this can end our evil dream. No light but this can save the world. For this alone will never fail in anything, being Your gift to Your beloved Son.

I drove into daybreak on the way to Manchester, after waking at 5 a.m. and fitting in about 500 words on the book. Fitted in another 300 while I waited on his drive for my son to come home, as he’d forgotten I was coming and was at his friend’s house. My work there was quick and clinical and I was back on the road home by 12.15.

The rest of the day was spent at the Ramada Penns Lane hotel (used to be the hotel used in Crossroads many years ago). Gym, spa, and afternoon tea. Gave the ACIM support group a miss and ended with a couple of hundred words to round off the word count to 1000. Slid down between the sheets feeling very satisfied.

Fear binds the world. Forgiveness sets it free.

The ego makes illusions. Truth undoes its evil dreams by shining them away. Truth never makes attack. It merely is. And by its presence is the mind recalled from fantasies, awaking to the real. Forgiveness bids this presence enter in, and take its rightful place within the mind. Without forgiveness is the mind in chains, believing in its own futility. Yet with forgiveness does the light shine through the dream of darkness, offering it hope, and light shine through the dream of darkness, offering it hope and giving it the means to realise the freedom that is its inheritance.

We would not bind the world again today. Fear holds it prisoner. And yet Your Love has given us the means to set it free. Father, we would release it now. For as we offer freedom, it is given us. And we would not remain as prisoners, while You are holding freedom out to us.

Yesterday I had a complete plan of the last story; today I began writing in earnest. Hit my word count before one o’clock but alas had a lot of other things to deal with today. Lots of opportunities to practice forgiveness while dealing with council workers over the phone.

Met with a friend, a Nigerian prince, who said his sisters funeral earlier this month made him realise that the important thing in life is to know yourself and to help make a difference in other people’s lives. It shouldn’t always have to take a death for this message to come home, but better then than never. Love is everything.

 What is the ego? (Reading)

The ego is idolatry; the sign of limited and separated self, born in a body, doomed to suffer and to end its life in death. It is the ‘will’ that sees the Will of God as enemy, and takes a form in which it is denied. The ego is the ‘proof’ that strength is weak and love is fearful, life is really death and what opposes God alone is true.

The ego is insane. In fear it stands beyond the Everywhere, apart from All, in separation from the Infinite. In its insanity it thinks it has become a victor over God Himself. And in its terrible autonomy it ‘sees’ the Will of God has been destroyed. It dreams of punishment, and trembles at the figures in its dreams; its enemies, who seek to murder it before it can ensure its safety by attacking them.

Lesson 331

There is no conflict, for my will is Yours. (Lesson)

How foolish, Father, to believe Your Son could cause himself to suffer! Could he make a plan for his damnation, and be left without a certain way to his release? You love me, Father. You could never leave me desolate, to die within a world of pain and cruelty. How could I think that Love has left Itself? There is no will except the Will of Love. Fear is a dream, and has no will that can conflict with Yours. Conflict is sleep, and peace awakening. Death is illusion; life, eternal truth. There is no opposition to Your Will. There is no conflict, for my will is yours.

Forgiveness shows us that God’s Will is One, and that we share it. Let us look upon the holy sights forgiveness shows today, that we may find the peace of God. Amen.

As the plot for the last story emerged and the themes were layered on top, it became clear that the main thread is forgiveness. Finally I get to fictionalise it. I was very, very excited and wanted to plunge straight into writing, but alas the rest of life crept in and took over. I’ll set to it straight away tomorrow.

I am always amazed when I open up and let the characters tell their stories.