What is the ego? (Reading)
The ego is idolatry; the sign of limited and separated self, born in a body, doomed to suffer and to end its life in death. It is the ‘will’ that sees the Will of God as enemy, and takes a form in which it is denied. The ego is the ‘proof’ that strength is weak and love is fearful, life is really death and what opposes God alone is true.
The ego is insane. In fear it stands beyond the Everywhere, apart from All, in separation from the Infinite. In its insanity it thinks it has become a victor over God Himself. And in its terrible autonomy it ‘sees’ the Will of God has been destroyed. It dreams of punishment, and trembles at the figures in its dreams; its enemies, who seek to murder it before it can ensure its safety by attacking them.
There is no conflict, for my will is Yours. (Lesson)
How foolish, Father, to believe Your Son could cause himself to suffer! Could he make a plan for his damnation, and be left without a certain way to his release? You love me, Father. You could never leave me desolate, to die within a world of pain and cruelty. How could I think that Love has left Itself? There is no will except the Will of Love. Fear is a dream, and has no will that can conflict with Yours. Conflict is sleep, and peace awakening. Death is illusion; life, eternal truth. There is no opposition to Your Will. There is no conflict, for my will is yours.
Forgiveness shows us that God’s Will is One, and that we share it. Let us look upon the holy sights forgiveness shows today, that we may find the peace of God. Amen.
As the plot for the last story emerged and the themes were layered on top, it became clear that the main thread is forgiveness. Finally I get to fictionalise it. I was very, very excited and wanted to plunge straight into writing, but alas the rest of life crept in and took over. I’ll set to it straight away tomorrow.
I am always amazed when I open up and let the characters tell their stories.