Let not my world obscure the sight of Christ.
I can obscure my holy sight, if I intrude my world upon it. Nor can I behold the holy sights Christ looks upon, unless it is His vision that I use. Perception is a mirror, not a fact. And what I look on is my state of mind, reflected outward. I would bless the world by looking on it through the eyes of Christ. And I will look upon the certain signs that all my sins have been forgiven me.
You lead me from the darkness to the light; from sin to holiness. Let me forgive, and thus receive salvation for the world. It is Your gift, my Father, given me to offer to Your holy Son, that he may find again the memory of You, and of Your Son as You created him.
Finished the first story by 12.30 today (5500 words) and felt ecstatic, and probably would have continued on a high except for the visit I had from someone who was very upset with me. The encounter was a really clear example of the lesson – perception is a mirror, not a fact. When we’ve made up stories in our heads, and projected those stories on others, we see only what we want to see, hear only what supports our projections, and forgive only what we think the other person deserves to be forgiven for. Being on the receiving end of such projections I came to realise that it didn’t really matter what I said. Any attempt to defend myself was seen as evidence that I had something to defend, so I remembered and reverted quickly to one of my ‘get out of jail’ affirmations – in my defencelessness my safety lies.
It was also clear evidence that you cannot change a person’s perception until s/he is willing to have it changed. I was very sad for the person, because I could feel his pain, but as he was determined to hang on to it (at least for the time being) there was nothing I could do but send him love. But it left me feeling very sad.