Today I will judge nothing that occurs

I will be honest with myself today. I will not think that I already know what must remain beyond my present grasp. I will not think I understand the whole from bits of my perception, which are all that I can see. Today I recognise that this is so. And so I am relieved of judgements hat I cannot make. Thus do I free myself and what I look upon, to be in peace as God created us.

Father, today I leave creation free to be itself. I honour all its parts, in which I am included. We are one because each part contains Your memory, and truth must shine in all of us as one.

It began in the morning, a feeling of total overwhelm, of heaviness, of not wanting to go on. Tears, sobs that wracked my body came from nowhere and lasted most of the day. A friend was kind enough to see my need and take me to lunch, where I shared a lot of what was on my mind. But it seemed somewhat small for the reaction in my psyche, in my body. I was puzzled. I didn’t feel like me, didn’t feel that whatever the issues were, that they were mine, and said so a few times. It felt like I was back in a family constellation experiencing another soul’s distress.

At about 4 p.m. I read my lesson for the first time and laughed out loud. I could maybe have saved myself a lot of distress if I’d read it first thing in the morning. I might have not spent so much time trying to work things out, and would have accepted that I didn’t need to understand everything. The peace began to come back, and was hastened by some very loud Beres Hammond and Guppy Ranks.

After watching a comedy film, I was restored to my former, trusting, peaceful self. What on earth was all that about?