‘I share God’s Will for happiness for me.’
You do not want to suffer. You may think it buys you something, and you may still believe a little that it buys you what you want. Yet this belief is surely shaken now, at least enough to let you question it, and to suspect it really makes no sense. It has not gone as yet, but lacks roots that once secured it tightly to the dark and hidden secret places of your mind.
Today we try to loose its weakened hold still further, and to realise that pain is purposeless, without a cause and with no power to accomplish anything. It cannot purchase anything at all. It offers nothing, and does not exist. And everything you think it offers you is lacking in existence, like itself. You have been slave to nothing. Be you free today to join the happy Will of God.
For several days we will continue to devote our periods of practicing to exercises planned to help up reach the happiness God’s Will has placed in you. Here is your home, and here your safety is. Here is your peace, and here there is no fear. Here is salvation. Here is rest at last.
Begin your practice periods today with this acceptance of God’s Will for you:
I share God’s Will for happiness for me, and I accept it as my function now.
Then seek this function deep within your mind, for it is there, awaiting but your choice. You cannot fail to find it when you learn it is your choice and that you share God’s Will. Be happy, for your only function is happiness.
This is virtually the whole lesson. I read it and re-read it several times through out the day, particularly as I was developing a pain in my stomach. Louise Hay associates pain with guilt, so I looked at what I developing guilt about. It’s amazing how it creeps up, slide under your emotional radar, slips in between the folds of your insecurities and begins to burrow its way into your fear.
All it takes is for one little thing to raise its head and months of practice can be derailed within seconds. What I realised today is that, even for me who have been at this for so long, happiness is still not the default. Staying in a happy place is like constantly pulling on the elastic to keep it taut. Any relaxation and we can gradually slide back (or even do a more rapid return) to fear and guilt and pain. I welcome the fact that there will be a few more lessons on happiness.
I got some more feedback today on Betrayed and am heartened. It will be with the publishers by the end of the month, and hopefully will be available in book form by the end of June.
I got some inspiration for the parenting book this morning, in that space between dream and meditation.