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If I am bound, my Father is not free.

If I accept that I am prisoner within a body, in a world in which all things that seem to live appear to die, then is my Father prisoner with me. And this do I believe, when I maintain the laws the world obeys must I obey; the frailties and the sins which I perceive are real, and cannot be escaped. If I am bound in any way, I do not know my Father nor my Self. And I am lost to all reality. For truth is free, and what is bound is not a part of truth.

Father, I ask for nothing but the truth. I have had many foolish thoughts about myself and my creation, and have brought a dream of fear into my mind. Today, I would not dream. I choose the way to You instead of madness and instead of fear. For truth is safe, and only love is sure.

After reading this today I turned to the manual for teachers and found myself on the page ‘What are the characteristics of God’s teachers’ I obviously needed reminding that in order of importance they are 1. Trust, 2.Honesty, 3. Tolerance 4.Gentleness 5. Joy 6. Defencelessness, 7. Generosity, 8. Patience, 9. Faithfulness 10. Open-mindedness.

I am having to trust big time at the moment. A few weeks ago I decided to be very open and honest with a friend, in a way that left me quite exposed. It was a scary thing to do, but something happened today to make me grateful that I had taken that action.

Reading through the page I was reminded that honesty requires trust. It is only because I trusted that I was able to do it, and also because in my defencelessness my safety lies. When you’ve been honest its possible to be fearless – because, after all, what can anyone find out about you that you didn’t already tell them. Honest people are safe from blackmail.

The Word of God is given me to speak.

What is the Word of God? ‘My Son is pure and holy as Myself.’ And thus did God become the Father of the Son He loves, for thus was he created. This is the Word His Son did not create with Him, because in this His Son was born. Let us accept His Fatherhood, and all is given us. Deny we were created in His Love and we deny our Self, to be unsure of Who we are, of Who our Father is, and for what purpose we have come. And yet, we need but to acknowledge Him Who gave His Word to us in our caution, to remember Him and to recall our Self.

Father, Your Word is mine. And it is this that I would speak to all my brothers, who are given to me to cherish as my own, as I am loved and blessed and saved by You.

After three readings of today’s lesson, I still only really understand the second paragraph. Still very much on the theme of letting God speak through me, and boy, did I need it today! It wasn’t so much a case of letting God speak through me, as letting him show me when to hold my tongue.

I am attending the ‘how to not take it personally’ class again – with a very effective teacher. I am progressing up the rung of qualifications, and if I’m not at PhD yet, I must be close. This is like a practical lab class to extend all the other practical classes and the theory ones too.

A massage and reflexology treatment in the middle of the day helped!

God’s healing Voice protects all things today.

Let us today attend the Voice for God, which speaks an ancient lesson, no more true today than any other day. Yet has this day been chosen as the time when we will seek and hear and learn and understand. Join me in hearing. For the Voice for God tells us of thing we cannot understand alone, nor learn apart. It is in this that all things are protected. And in this the healing of the Voice for God is found.

Your healing Voice protects all things today, and so I leave all things to You. I need be anxious over nothing. For Your Voice will tell me what to do and where to go; to whom to speak and what to say to him, and what thoughts to think, what words to give the world. The safety that I bring is given me. Father, Your Voice protects all things through me.

I read this lesson, then directly after read a few pages in Walking in This World. To my surprise Julia Cameron wrote, ‘It is one of the mysterious happiness of the creative life that when we become willing to listen, the ‘still, small voice’ seems to grow louder. Today I was willing to listen to the still, small voice, and one of the first things it did was lead me to a meeting with someone who wanted to talk about the voices he hears in his head, and how he sometimes finds it difficult to follow their guidance. So, there it was, I’d heard it three times, it must be something to pay attention to throughout the day.

Following a very successful planning meeting for Caribbean Juices, I discovered that my picture is on the cover of this year’s Black History Month brochure, and is also included as part of the listing on the inside. ALSO I’ve been offered a very good deal on design and printing for publicity posters. All this – and work on the novel progressing. My concerns about not being able to promote and write at the same time are diminishing by the day. I am VERY, VERY, excited. The still, small voice is saying, ‘you are limitless,’ and I am listening.

Today belongs to love. Let me not fear.

Father, today I would let all thing be as you created them, and give Your Son the honour due his sinlessness; the love of brother to his brother and his Friend. Through this I am redeemed. Through this as well the truth will enter where illusions were, light will replace all darkness, and Your Son will know he is as you created him.

A special blessing comes to us today, whom Him Who is our Father. Give this day to Him, and there will be no fear today, because the day is given unto love.

What an amazing day! It felt like a dam was opened up in my creative reservoir, and stuff just poured into my head. I worked on the novel for four hours non stop. The characters and their motivations became so clear I could see them as if in a movie. I buzzed for the whole day with the conversations they were having with each other, and I knew their world. I felt their hopes and fears, their anger, their longings, their insecurities. I saw the many and varied faces they presented to the world to hide their deepest feeling. It was such a privilege to be with them, and although it’s clear to me what they need to do to get out of their predicaments, they cannot see it.

Being a novelist is like being God. This oversight of all of the lives of the characters, this knowing of how it will end and the journey that will take them there, but even though I have in my head roughly what the process will be, I know that when the characters talk to each other they will make their own choices and will take me down some unexpected paths. I am so excited to share their journeys with them.

So many other things just fell into place throughout the day. Total confirmation for me that when we commit to doing what is right for us, the universe organises itself around us to facilitate it.

The stillness of the peace of God is mine.

Perhaps we are now ready for a day of undisturbed tranquillity. If this is not yet feasible, we are content and even more than satisfied to learn how such a day can be achieved. If we give way to a disturbance, let us learn how to dismiss it and return to peace. We need but tell our minds, with certainty, ‘The stillness of the peace of God is mine,’ and nothing can intrude upon the peace that God Himself has given His Son.

Father, Your peace is mine. What need have I to fear that anything can rob me of what You would have me keep? I cannot lose Your gifts to me. And so the peace you gave Your Son is with me still, in quietness and in my own eternal love for You.

I had an early email requesting that I sort out an issue between two of the tenants. I was on my way to respond when I stopped and read the lesson. My building anxiety was instantly calmed. I was certainly ready for a day of undisturbed tranquillity, and made a decision to have one. A peaceful solution presented itself, and I welcomed it with open arms. A good workout at the gym, a great meal and some lovely wine, ensured a day totally in the spirit of the lesson.

I was also grateful to a friend for creating a flyer for my book launch on October 13^th. Please see attached flyer.